Thursday, August 13, 2009

why are my dreams suddenly unattainable//economy, why do you suck?and banks, same wif you!!!




I had an meet-up with an admissions advisor at FIDM today...
after spending hours working on my portfolio,spending most of my time kneeled over drenched in watercolors, making calls, filling out forms, etc. Today was THEE day.
and as you can imagine. IT WENT GREAT!
(my portfolio looked great, i was really proud of it)
PLUS....
I wore my favorite geometric print dress, with my oddly shaped overcoat, black stockings and my perrrrrrrrrrrrfect cut-out heels! but....
I can't afford to go without a loan of sorts. my only route is parent PLUS loan.
I didn't even bother to ask my parents, because at my current state of doom (and shall we say gloom?), I knew rejection would just kill me.
so....

FIDM=out of the question.
AAU=soooooooooooo expensive, way outtttt.
LIM=still pretty expensive, I'm not even quite sure...i'm not a merchandising major anyways...
all that's left=Art Institute of San Francisco (or Hollywood)

So yeah, my entire future rests in their hands.
I'm scared.
their units are like $475 each, doesn't stray far from FIDM's unit cost, but a far stretch from academy's, that's for sureeeeeeeeeeee!
tuition MAY be covered, I don't know how their program works yet, and housing-I don't even know!!!I just don't!

but i'm not giving up, fashion is my life. and without it,what life is there worth living???
I saw Nick Verreos on campus. he was wearing a cute grey suit with green what-nots.cute.hahahaha